Language Post Problem

Social media nowadays become a new way for me especially, to keep up to date with information, I do have some varieties of social media account such as twitter, facebook, tumblr, and more. The problem I've been experience in this social media is language. I have to admit it by myself that I'm enjoying post a lot of stuff in English better than my own native language which is Indonesian. I don't know why posting stuff in English makes me more comfortable than posting it in my own language. Ironic, that's all I can say. I feel that post something in English just makes it looks better, and I have to say for me I'm not feeling good when I post something in Indonesian in order to express my feelings, for me it sound better in English especially when I talk about my feelings.

This become pretty huge issue for me because I realize as a teenager I should have been proud and using my native language everywhere I speak. Oh, it's not because I don't like my own language but I figured it's a matter of my confidence. I'm not saying that my English is very good but I'm trying to be good. I want to be able to increase my ability in English so that I start using it in my daily life. And in the other hand I'm not trying to leave Indonesian language, I still use it too.

Maybe some of you think "why you don't try to increase your ability on writing in your own language?" and the answer is "I really want to!" but, the thing is I feel that there's so much more in Indonesian language that I have to figure out and finally to feel pretty good to use it more on my post. I'm willing to use Indonesian more in my post but back again I don't know why everything suddenly sound better in English. I'm still confuse.....