Being an Only Child (a Pros and Cons)

It's been a very long time for myself to convince my heart to post about this, yes, being the only child in the family. I am a very lucky daughter of a gentleman and a lady who are amazingly turn me into - I wish- a young lady. It is personally hard for me to post about this stuff, about my personal life, because anyone can read this and it's no longer my secret. But the only reason I wrote this is because I want people to see what is it really of being the only child of a family. So, here we go...

A lot of my friends and random people said how lucky I am to be an only child and they often questioned "how does it feels to be the only child? it must be so much fun doesn't it?" and the answer is NO! Being the only child is just the same as being other kind of child. Yes, I know everything is for me, everything is about me, my parents give me everything I want, and my parents never compare me to others. BUT there's always a negative side of anything and this is what I want people to know. I am a human and as a human we never satisfied of what we got, what we have, and same here. Being an only child sometimes make me really selfish and I want people to always listen to me, and that's a bad thing. Beside that I always wanted an older brother or a little sister -for me more of an older siblings- just to keep me feel save then teach me to be prepared facing this young-adult years.

Friends? I mean, really? I know they have their own life and I really don't want to disturb them with all my bullsh*t but then people start to question "for what? you have everything you want?" BUT you know what people? being the only child sometimes get me down, yes I do feel alone, yes I do feel worthless, and yes I do feel empty. And I don't know how to tell it and I don't know who to share with and yes it suck sometimes. I don't know who to share with when I got "teenager problems" because we all know my teenage years and my parents' teenage years are so much different. I do have so much pressure being the only child, you know as a child I want to be the best in everything and make my parents proud of me and I don't want their name become bad because of me. As the only person that will continue my parents' legacy I really want to be the one who's ready for everything, the one who's strong, the one who's independent, the one who could accomplished the  requirement to be a strong hearted daughter. And in the end it's always my heart and my mind who struggled a lot and alone, you know I always try to think maturely and see things differently because if it's not me who else? right? So people I do have something bad and happiness is not always about money or stuff that we have :)

Aside from all the negativities I DO FEEL SO LUCKY to be me, a daughter to my parents. I do feel very blessed to have them in my life, to have such a supporting parents and let me do what I want I think is everybody's dream and I DO HAVE THAT! YAY! Having such a wonderful amazing parents like them is a heaven on earth, they teach me how to think mature but not being an old lady. I still can have fun with all my friends and I have everything I want hehehehe which I think it is a +1000. My parents have been "the old friends" that leads me into positivity in life and always teach me to share everything with others, to always be nice to people, to always realize that each person have scar on their heart, to always keep people's trust on me, and I do learn A LOT from them and I love them to the seventh sky and back hehe <3 I still want to learn so much more in life because my parents are the most kind hearted people on earth, I can't beat them on being one. It's been a very nice journey to live my life with them and I'm looking forward to another million years.

WHOAAAHH!!! I'm sorry this is such a very long post, but I really really do feel blessed for who I am right now, this post is not aiming to offend anyone I just want to share a little about my life, because sometimes we have to realize that other people have their own life too and their life also suck sometimes. So people, if you think I'm just a girl who can only have fun and waisting my parents' money, oh come oonnn!!! What are you? a fuddy-duddy? OH poor you :< I am absolutely not that person hahahaha. Okay, I know this is kind of a long story I just want to say I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD!!! I thank God for sending me them to my life.

XOXO